Remarkably, I am not freaking out. I feel ready–mostly–but I have a sneaking premonition that there is no way I can be fully prepared for what my committee will ask me. While mostly calm, I do worry if I have read enough, or really my worst fear of being able to recall and synthesize what I have read to explain my position, my study, and why I am ready to move to the next phase of my journey–data collection. The proposal defense is essentially the defense of my first three chapters in their most current form–Introduction (What), Theoretical Framework (Why), and Methodology (How). (I feel strongly I will be making modifications to it after the defense). The defense is my opportunity to prove to myself and my committee that I am well-informed enough and well-read enough to take on data collection and the subsequent analysis of that data. Most hours I think I am ready, but every once in awhile an element of doubt creeps into my mind (Have I done enough? Do I know enough?). On the spectrum of excitement and anxiety, I am somewhere in the middle. If there is a word for that feeling, I need someone to fill me in because I do not know it. In any case, I will be sure let those of you following my adventure know how it goes. Hopefully, I will have good news Tuesday night. Cheers!